confession friday

happy friday!

*I confess that I hope you read the post below and think about honoring a special woman in your life!

*I confess that "time" scares me a bit... it seems to be true that time speeds up as we age. example: it was just Monday, I swear. And now it's Friday... and I have to keep those "I haven't accomplished enough this week and I was a horrible mother" thoughts from creeping into my heart. Because that kind of thinking just won't help. And it won't slow down time, either.

*I confess that I'm sick of spin class. I used to love it, the way it created a killer workout in a small amount of time. I'll most likely keep going, but I'm feeling extra lazy these days.

*I confess that sometimes I just pick up the largest chunks of dog hair on my floor and throw them away... instead of vacuuming. Because I just don't have time to vacuum (and when I do, my youngest child is napping... and we live in a small house... you get the picture).

*I will always confess that the way women treat each other breaks my heart almost every day. The competition for "who's right and who's wrong" when it comes to just about anything... parenting, religion, clothing... on and on. I'm trying to simply look for the best in everyone and respect their choices, knowing that what's best for one person might not be best for me, and vice versa. Wouldn't it be amazing if women really stuck together as a team in this way? Only due to the common bond of being goddess women, and for no other reason and with no other expectations? That would be revolutionary... let's try that together :).

*I confess that, for the past year, I bought nothing for myself as a self-challenge (from September 2009 through September 2010). I was very interesting to learn about myself through that journey. But my confession has to do with right now. Prior to my self-challenge year, I hadn't bought many clothes for many years before then, either. So, my clothes were pretty worn. And now, I confess, I'm going a little overboard (well, by my standards, not by hollywood's :) ) in my shopping. But it's like I finally found what I like, what makes me feel comfortable and beautiful and feminine and myself all in one breath. It's fun! Maybe I'll post pictures of clothes soon :).

*I confess that my next challenge involves eating every speck of food in our freezer and cabinets to save money and to clean out.... before going back to the store. So far it's been sorta fun, and has forced us to get creative.

*I confess that I hope you confess today... here, on your blog, in your head, wherever. Clean out the junk, friends!

Have a great weekend!

xoxo!

confession friday

Ah yes! It's Friday again... time to confess... I hope you will too, either here or on your blog... it's freeing to release our "junk"!

So...

*I feel pressed for time this week... lots of deadlines, which is so cool because that means I've been given work to do. For me, work is really empowering, especially since my "day job" (well, more like 24-hour-job) is "mom" to three young kids. Anyway, it's hard to juggle it all... but I'd rather be juggling than not, so no complaints here! And sometimes a little stress is good... gets the creativity flowing (I've always worked better under pressure).

*I usually am not nervous about medical stuff, but I have an eye surgery coming up. FREAKY. I don't have any vision problems so I've never even had to put drops in my eyes. So anything having to do with eyeballs is GROSS. My friend's husband is doing the surgery, so that's great. But I've even asked him why the heck he wants to touch eyeballs all day. EW! So, positive thoughts and prayers for my anxiety would be so appreciated. Thanks!

*Confessions tend to sway to the negative end of the spectrum, but I'm really happy right now. Just plain old happy. I've lived a blessed life. I get to be in a relationship with a good person. I get to raise amazing kids, and I love my job(s). I fully attribute this to doing what I want to do instead of feeling pressured to do otherwise. This means my title isn't all that prestigious and my salary is waaaaay low. But I get to enjoy every day that I'm on this earth. I'm excited about the future. And I really hope that for each of you, too.

*I'm totally against anything artificial. But I still love a good, cold, diet coke. I've been taken hostage by coca cola. save me!

*If you could see how full of dog hair my floor is right now, it would make you feel better about yourself, trust me.

*This is so not cool of me, apparently. But I love Taylor Swift. She's herself, and she writes her own music. And she's so honest. I hope you can be "fearless" with your hopes and dreams... and have a wonderful weekend!

confession friday

hello lovely readers!

Where has this week gone? It flew by for me... and I learned a lot along the way. I hope you did, too.

*I confess that I've been juggling too many things lately between jobs and kids... and I think the result was a bad migraine headache on Wednesday night. It was a wake-up call... a reminder to take better care of myself. To eat good food. To drink more water, and to rest every so often. Women have a hard time caring for themselves... I think we're geared to care more for others. It's good to make sure we're okay so that we can love others well. So, I'm going to focus on that (as soon as I get all these things done... ha!).

*I confess that I've felt too sensitive this week... to vulnerable to other's opinions of me. Why do I let what other people think bother me so deeply? I guess I'm tender in that way... I don't handle criticisms well. That's something I don't like about myself. But not liking a part of who I am, and how I was made, won't really help the situation, I've realized. Because then I'll be too sensitive AND filled with self-hatred. Not a good combination. I'm practicing letting things go, or turning the criticism into something positive, or reminding myself that, many times, criticism comes from a place of insecurity within that person. Instead of taking things so personally, it's good for me to refocus the issue and remember that we're all vulnerable to a certain extent, and many times people put others down in order to elevate themselves... away from their own fears. Good stuff to remember.

*I confess that I've never cooked brussels sprouts and so I bought some. There was a lady in the store watching me buy them, and she sweetly told me to steam them and then add some butter and lemon juice. I'll let you know how that goes... any suggestions?

*I confess that I have a huge zit on my chin. It hurts, and I feel like I'm 15.

*I confess that I have more questions than answers about religion, and I'm okay with that.

*I confess that I've been googling land prices in Montana again :).

*I confess that I'm not ready to go natural with my grey hair yet, so I dyed my roots yesterday... so much for embracing myself the way I was created... I'm not ready to have grey hair yet! Hey, at least I'm being honest!

Have a fantastic weekend friends!

(and here is my FAVORITE quote dealing with the topic of criticism. Oh how I love it. Read it carefully and meditate on it. The words ring so true for me.):

It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled, or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes short again and again, who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause, who at best knows achievement and who at the worst if he fails at least fails while daring greatly so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.

From a speech given in Paris at the Sorbonne in 1910

- Theodore Roosevelt

confession friday

*i don't feel much like confessing today, so there won't be much... some days just feel quieter!

*i'm feeling pretty overwhelmed with lots of things going on in life... so i'll be taking a little breather from heavy writing here, but i'll be sharing many favorite quotes and music and links to keep the inspiration going...

*be sure to check out yesterday's post and tell me about your dreams...

*I have lots of gray roots. I need to dye said roots more often now. i'm not a fan of this! what do you all think? to dye or not to dye? i don't want to be a slave to what i *should* look like at this age (i'm 31), but i also don't want to have gray hair! oh the dilemma...

*here's my favorite clip from Glee... i guess it's not available to share on blogs, so someone videotaped it off of their tv screen and put it on youtube. so not great quality, but i hope it comforts you today... you are beautiful :)

confession friday

hello goddess friends!

I hope you've had a delightful week... or at least you've tried to see the bright side of life, even if life has handed you a few lemons...

****tomorrow is the drawing for the Suubi beads! Don't forget to share this blog or start to follow, and you can be entered in the drawing to WIN the beads, and I'll send them to you!****

Anyway, please feel free to confess here if you need to!

Here I go...

*there are some people in my world driving me nuts. Every day I'm waking up and willing myself to have love and grace for them. Sometimes that is really difficult. Sometimes that involves raising children. This is life :).

*Along those same lines... there are very few people on this earth I don't like. Obviously we can all be picky about people, me included, but I can count on one hand the people I'd rather eat poo than be stuck in an elevator with. Most people I could totally handle. But oh dear, I met this woman this week. She broke my heart. She was the meanest, snobbiest person I've ever encountered, and I'm not exaggerating. But goddesses continue to be respectful and lovely despite such rudeness, and I will vow to do that. I may need some of your prayers and good vibes to accomplish this. geesh.

*I'm sort if in a state of shock, because my children are growing up very quickly. But I do have to confess... it's nice watching them become more independent(ahem... because I get to be more independent)! What a cool process to watch them grow and change and become their own little people. Truly awesome!

*One thing I struggled with this week? Wanting a lot of money, and wanting to earn in fast. But as soon as those money thoughts enter my head, I get tunnel vision and forget about what's really important in life. For me, it's really dangerous to fall into that trap of assuming money or things will make me happy. It's such a huge lie that we swallow. I'm actively working against this desire, and refocusing. It feels so good and refreshing and FREEING! to refocus... on my family, my work, my friends, my blessings.

*speaking of $$, I often find myself wishing that my more well-off family/friends would be willing to give more of their wealth to worthy causes. From my perspective it seems that the most $ towards the poor comes from my friends who are poor themselves. But, I can't judge someone based on what I want. I have no clue what's going on in each person's life financially, even if it appears that they're doing really well. So my judgment helps nothing. (although we could ALL be encouraged to be more open-handed with our stuff and money).

*I keep having dreams that someone is going to invent Nutella frosting for a strawberry cake. One of you cake people out there needs to jump on this. It will be delightful. At least it was in my dream.

Have a wonderful day and weekend! Go ahead and confess your junk here if you need to... and remember...

Well-behaved women rarely make history. 
-- Laurel Thatcher Ulrich
(but you still have to be kind).

confession friday

okay goddesses. you're gonna have to help me out today. confess! at least something.

okay, here I go...

*I'm feeling really restless about where we live. I love it here but I'm ready to explore new lands. I'd rather not feel restless though, and be content in how blessed we are to live in a nice, kind-hearted place. There's something in me that's ready to explore... so it's a balance of living in the moment and being content, and wanting to take off.

*I totally lost my temper with one of my kids this week. I shouted at him like a crazy monster. Granted, he was being super horrible in his behavior towards a sibling, but still, I don't want to be that crazy yelling mom... sometimes I'm afraid of what my kids will remember.

*I know every woman deals with this to a certain extent, but there are parts of my body that I despise. If I let my shallow brain make decisions, I would seriously start saving money to get liposuction on my hips. While people around the world are starving to death. Yeah, shallow. I really need to work on having a positive image of myself... self-love... especially for my daughter's sake. (ps- what the heck is up with the skinny jean trend? i even bought some. i'm cool with wearing them with a top that covers my butt, but otherwise they make me look like i gained at least 10 pounds, and um, that's not really the look i'm going for right now...)

*I have this really bad tendency to shun the "in crowd." I don't want to be associated with a certain group of women, for fear that I'll turn into the exclusive person who appears to be leaving people out. I would absolutely hate to make someone feel alone and not included. So I don't allow myself to be in any specific group or clique. And then I let my feelings get hurt when I'm not included in things. So I'm a loner who wants/needs community. Welcome to my brain... so confusing. And yet, I still find the most satisfaction in being on the loner side of the spectrum... I tend to lose myself and my own wishes for life when I listen too carefully to what other people want. I like freedom for my soul/personality/creativity, so I guess the trade-off is loneliness sometimes.

So those are some of the thoughts running through my goddess head this week. It feels good to spill them here. Happy weekend!